My spiritual awakening started in 2019, after one energy session my partner took me to. I had no idea about spirituality. Even though I was always drawn to Law of Attraction-type books, it was nothing deep. I went there with zero expectations. My partner also didn’t have any extraordinary experience, nor did his friends, so I had nothing to expect.
I lay down, and the healer started—not even touching my root chakra—but I started to feel an immense amount of pain. Then my sacral, and so on, until my head—each of my seven chakras revealed itself to me. Not just that, I connected with my soul family. It was a deep remembrance—it’s hard to put into words. My golden light family. They welcomed me. I remembered the other world—the real one.
Later, I was feeling so light, full of love. But I couldn’t hold that for long. I was also too young and had no knowledge at all. And I started to dive in. I would do anything to feel that again in life. Books, Reiki training, endless courses. I learned a lot in a couple of years, slowly building a foundation for what was to come next.
Then we moved abroad in 2022. That’s when my biggest awakening truly started. I quit smoking (by the way, I also quit before my first experience in 2019, but I started again). I had been a smoker for 12 years—it’s very common in my culture and runs in the family. It was hard to break. Anyway, I ate my first mushroom. I saw the Source—as a big light—and I felt how we’re all trying to reunite with that light. It’s all about union. I was full of love, just looking at it, witnessing it. Nothing can compare with that feeling. I enjoyed sitting with it, witnessing it, feeling the connection with everyone in the world—how we all essentially want to be united again. I felt how we are witnessing ourselves, how we are all part of God. We are God. (My North Node is in the 9th house—also known as the house of God.)
And I intuitively started meditation—besides my yoga practice. I began observing. A new country, so many papers to deal with, language barrier, unemployment... I was in so much darkness I can’t even describe. And I was witnessing it.
I had to face every feeling I had stored in my body. In an empty home—we didn’t even buy a TV for a year—I was literally put in solitude by life. I felt abandoned by God. I didn’t feel like myself. Then, my panic attacks started. Turns out, I have panic disorder. Maybe I always did, but I wasn’t aware—because I had been suppressing it with cigarettes, overworking, drinking.
I have to say—I have a Capricorn stellium in the 1st house. It was very difficult to handle all this. I started creating projects and learning new things in my field (marketing/data analytics). I kept myself busy to a degree. But there was a huge gap.
So much worthlessness. So much fear. So much people-pleasing that I realized—I wasn’t even living for myself. After a while, meditation makes you more aware of your thoughts in daily life—and I realized I wasn’t even thinking about myself at all. It was hard to see.
I started journaling. Writing saved my life. Since childhood, I wrote—maybe that’s what created my awareness. It helped protect me as a highly sensitive person living in a very opposite environment early in life. No crying, no expression, no emotions, no safety. Very chaotic. But I wrote.
Once again, writing helped me release so much. But it wasn’t enough. There was so much stuck in my body. But I hated moving my body—especially after COVID, it got worse. I had a bad history with sports from childhood, and a bad relationship with food.
I didn’t eat breakfast. Just coffee and cigarettes for years—and maybe one meal most of the time. I wasn’t taking care of my body at all. I only worked, worked, worked. And I was very good at my job, which gave me a sense of relief and value.
Anyway, so many things went wrong from 2022 to 2024—I can’t even count. I lost my connection with God. I couldn’t feel its support. The only place I could find shelter was in Mother Nature. I would go to the trees while having intense panic attacks. My attacks were so bad that afterward, my body would release so much adrenaline. I couldn’t move for days—I’d just lie down and rest.
After those attacks, I realized—I can’t please anyone anymore. I don’t even have the energy to do it, even if I wanted to. And yes, that’s a very common part of spiritual awakening. I lost many people along the way. I let go. Even family members. It was painful, but it was a necessary process for my growth and future well-being.
Without cigarettes, I discovered my ADHD. I somehow pushed myself to start daily exercise with just 5 minutes. (My Mars is in Cancer, Saturn in Aries—it’s tough to move.) But that led to the gym. And I started to feel more in control of my life.
I slowly learned exercise. Then, healthy food—one meal at a time. It took me two years to integrate healthy meals and an exercise routine. And I enjoyed the process as much as I could. But these adjustments aren’t easy for self-healers. It’s not linear.
With time, my body released so much. I released my childhood wounds, my ancestors… I connected with them in my dreams and in daily life—so much. I became incredibly sensitive to the energies around me.
And meanwhile—because of the whirlwind of my life—I also started astrology courses. I was always familiar with astrology. I’d had consultations in the past, followed my transits, learned my chart.
I also created my first conscious tech project with my partner, ChakraQuests—a gift to the self-healing community, born from my own journey and the lessons I had gathered along the way. Together, with my marketing background and his incredible software skills, we began building projects infused with love, magic, and a conscious approach.
Often, as we create, I find myself reflecting on our souls—how it feels like we made a promise to help Earth expand its consciousness through our passions. It feels surreal at times, but I’m almost certain my partner and I chose to play this game together!:) Earth can feel dense, like a video game on hard mode, yet it’s still a playground for growth.
Through it all, I learned how to bring magic into the Earth with a grounding approach—so that I could not only carry my magic, but also expand it. This is how it began to unfold within me:
- I came back to my body (root chakra).
- I started to feel small joys in daily life with everything I had (we also struggled financially in the beginning). I released relationships that no longer brought peace or joy (sacral chakra).
- I stepped up for myself, my future, and found my inner authority (solar plexus chakra).
- No matter what I lost—someone, something—I forgave everything and everyone because I didn’t want to carry it anymore. I made space for more (heart chakra).
- I started to speak my truth—even if my body shook (throat chakra).
- I began learning what true manifestation is. I started to trust my vision—even though I didn’t have proof (third eye).
- And I understood: I was never left by God. I was being given an opportunity to get closer to God. To step into my co-creator role. I was the universe experiencing itself. I was everything. Connected to everything (crown).
So I finally embodied my first energy session from 2019—in real life. I learned to align my chakras here on Earth by deeply connecting with my body, and I found that I can now hold more light than ever. I came to understand that the body itself is the most spiritual path we have—the gateway to presence, healing, and alignment. And I didn’t just learn to hold that alignment—I also had the awareness to return to it whenever I need, supported by my morning meditations that I’ve kept up for almost 3.5 years now.
Now, I feel so much love. I feel connected to the Divine, to nature, to the Universe, to my soul team, to my soul family. I’ve even started gridworking—connecting to places energetically.
It’s been a long journey to arrive here. I know how challenging spiritual awakening can be on a mental level, too. That’s why working with my body truly saved me. I’m not just healed—I’m thriving. I’ve become someone who can hold my healing spirals with an open heart—sometimes even with excitement—because I know they come only to support my growth. I witness magic in my daily life.
And I love connecting with people on a deep level. I’m so excited to connect and co-create with other souls—to remember who we truly are.
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